A Collage of Concentrated Catastrophes

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Thoughts from the crust in my eye.....

I was talkin to Dubb as I was fallin asleep on bbm a while back...I was gonna edit and turn into a post, but I decided against...instead posting the convo itself (I'm deedles...word):

J : Dozing?
<3 Deedles: Nah thinking
J : About
<3 Deedles: The blk community's problem
J : In totale?
<3 Deedles: Mhm
<3 Deedles: We're just a bit confused
<3 Deedles: But
<3 Deedles: More specific
<3 Deedles: An older lady I believe
<3 Deedles: At a talk or in a class
<3 Deedles: Whoever it was that told me every trend males do were to impress women
<3 Deedles: Really changed my life
J : Yeah?
J : Makes sense. Fitness
<3 Deedles: They were undoubtedly correct
<3 Deedles: Most kids have no interest in gangsta culture
<3 Deedles: Outside of looking cool
<3 Deedles: Males look cool for women
<3 Deedles: Its basic mating
J : Mmhm
<3 Deedles: There's a couple problems
<3 Deedles: One women don't know this concept and would never accept it as a general truth
<3 Deedles: Becauses then males would be unaccountable for actions (which they should be either way)
<3 Deedles: A scary thing abt gen under us
J : Hmmm
<3 Deedles: Blk males
<3 Deedles: That homies ova hoes syndrome is gospel
<3 Deedles: Two reasons
<3 Deedles: A they learned to love what accepts them (self determination)
<3 Deedles: B gay males are glorified by women of recent gens (a much bigger influence than people realize on their future mate selection)
<3 Deedles: Because the diff is, at one time
<3 Deedles: They were glorified as relatable to women
J : Interesting @ B
<3 Deedles: Now they're glorified as idealistic males
<3 Deedles: (This is often because stereotypical gay males kiss ass as much as they are extremely blunt)
<3 Deedles: For instance
<3 Deedles: Young blk males in skinny dancing in circles isn't gay
<3 Deedles: Its tribal bonding
<3 Deedles: Its their idea of comfort in ones skin, it breeds a discontempt for women
J : So society has reemasculated ther black man. This time going for *man* not *black*
<3 Deedles: Lol which of course some women misinterpret as rebelious
<3 Deedles: And Just like the homphobic ultra black gangstas they are now a trend to seek fem attn
<3 Deedles: Yes
<3 Deedles: If I'm honest
<3 Deedles: Say I'm not Lee, the package I am
<3 Deedles: Avg blk male
<3 Deedles: Looking in mirror
<3 Deedles: I gotta love myself first yea?
J : Mmhm
<3 Deedles: Who shares my similarities?
<3 Deedles: Other avg blk males
J : Mmhm
<3 Deedles: Blk women don't Need blk men to Be successful
J : Sadly
<3 Deedles: Or we would be more so
<3 Deedles: I can't name another race that works that way
<3 Deedles: No yt men successful? Even the fiercest yt feminist would say that's a problem
J : Do u agree w notion integration ruined black comm
<3 Deedles: No
<3 Deedles: Only temporarily
<3 Deedles: Blk wall street n such
<3 Deedles: Not possible long term
<3 Deedles: We had no real jurisdiction
<3 Deedles: Or wealth
<3 Deedles: We had unity, but viewing white as right was more the cause than blks mixing with whites
<3 Deedles: That nas line I quoted in owl article, is one of my fave lyrics in any genre
J : Bc of our unique *transition* to America a sense of home, communially wasn't there though
<3 Deedles: Another life changer
<3 Deedles: Abt us being the teenagers of the world
<3 Deedles: Teens are rebelious identity searchers
<3 Deedles: We aint grown yet
<3 Deedles: A half century in existance and look how dominating we are in scale
J : Mmhm
J : Pause
<3 Deedles: I think parents need to find a way to create a blended mentality
<3 Deedles: Save all this
J : In age we may be teenagers, but developmentally...how old are we?
<3 Deedles: Teens
J : I don't think so
<3 Deedles: 16? On the cusp of adulthood
<3 Deedles: Send me this stuff btw
J : I'd put us @ early childhood...struggling with autonomy and looking to identify...looking for models. See erikson stage 2 and freud anal stage. And I will.
J : I think we don't know who/what to be.
<3 Deedles: I don't disagree my skept is
J : What is a successful black man
<3 Deedles: I honestly don't believe the world will be around a long time
<3 Deedles: Or currently defined civilization


I dont remember how I answered that last question...lol, pretty sure I fell asleep...more soon....

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Feeling Like Adam

Feeling like adam...


The transition from Adam to McAdams is one without rationele..
Yet it is rationed, one peeks one peaks,
Organic love is orgasmic love

The fruit are just seeds, seeds are unstoppable....though seeds can be crushed
The burial of seeds, whether temptation or love, is not synonymous with erased...possibly a cousin of hidden


The wise explorer conquer's temptation, the young warrior deny's it
Faith is the daily news, the rose, and the orange all touched by the sun the morning after